Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Does this narrative essay contain philosophical meaning and is it A,B,C,D, or F quality?

I am in 11th grade AP English Literature and would like to know if the essay seems appropriate for a coming of age narrative. Also: is it interesting, meaningful, does it bring any questions to mind, believable (in which it is a true personal narrative), clear, or descriptive? Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated, thank you.





A Wild Pack of Wolves





The surging air flowed freely from the gaping wound of a door behind me. A blanket of humidity greeted me now with a suffocating intoxication, quickly reminding me how nice the air-conditioned the department store had been. Trudging along, I began my exile through the parking lot to my car. I left the store behind me and filtered through other corpses that stick baked to the asphalt. My skin glistens and reflects the unforgiving yet naïve sun, the same light that gives the moon its shallow glow. The sun seemed to give this day an individual energy and reality, a true ecstasy giving a hope to those banished from the gaiety of life. Any other day I would have hurried to my car, but today I let the sun’s inescapable veracity sizzle and soak me through, as do novelties a consumer. The tint from inside the car induced the purging of what existed beyond the window from out of what withered inside. Bliss, no matter how much I thought I had wanted it, and tried to get, ended in misery. Who was I fooling; I’m no more human than a puppet that will dance with the flick of a social conformist’s wrist. It’s days like this one that the red curtain retreats before me, giving way to life’s actors who seem to dramatize the same play repeatedly while I watch and recite their next words. I could no longer eat of the apple in all its décor of waxy perfection while this picture hung vainly rotten before me like a day’s till. Is having never tasted the sweetness of truth worse than the infinite dream of a false beauty? I twisted the ignition and cranked the air-conditioning, drinking in my artificial air until I was hydrated enough to adjust to the new light of the car. I sat there, fleeing far from the recesses of the parking lot; from where I sat, I could quietly add up my whole life. However this is no more than what could be fitted inside the plastic bag that lay strewn across the adjacent seat. I sat and wondered about past memories, surfaced from spotting The Jungle Book inside the department store. I wondered, if the boy in the story had continued living with the wolves and lived a lie his whole life, would it be better or worse than living with humans. If his life continued with the wolves he would never know responsibility, love, or religion. On the other hand, is living with humans and knowing hate, jealousy, malice, and vanity better? The time for my innocence had come and left, ripped out of my cradle before I knew whom good, evil, Adam, or Eve was. As I drove away from all that wilderness of the parking lot, all the cries and howls of long ago seemingly transmuted into nothing more than the glimmers of light, reflecting from the stream of asphalt that grew longer, until it became nothing more than the infinite luminosity of the sun that trailed past the distant mountains.





“Travis…Travis…--oh there you are. Hello my name is Doctor Newton and I’ll be your doctor for the next couple of weeks. Now you just come right through this door and we’ll get started with our first session—O.K.?”


I nodded, leaving the quiet emptiness that can only come from a group of people each silently enduring the weekly pain of a not so anticipated doctors appointment. The only detectable manifestation of this pain was the occasional crinkle of a magazine page being turned. As I passed under the ominous arch of the doorframe overhead I prayed silently that I would never have to read any of those magazines again. Doctor Newton’s office was littered with pictures of babies crawling in diapers and clowns with face paint. One clown had a sad face painted on him with a single real tear on his cheek--only the tear had been caked down from all the paint.


A long pause passed before the doctor’s and my eyes met somewhere on her desk; I was sitting on some Playskool desk with paper and crayons.


“So…” the doctor said, “can you tell me why you are here today?”


Another pause passed by without a word. I questioned myself why I was here in the first place and also whether her question was entrapment. Finally, I answered, “I can’t really say, my dad wouldn’t tell me.”


After the brief conversing I was told to “draw a picture—any picture I wanted.”


So I began to draw the clown I saw earlier and a couple other familiar things. I drew for ten minutes and she complimented me on the art. I began to take quick glances at her eyes, for they said what we both knew but only one of us would admit. I wanted to leave. I could feel a stinging pain on the back of my eyes and a queasy sensation in my abdomen.


Doctor Newton cracked the edges of her lips, paused and finally asked, “How do you feel about your mother?”


I uttered silently, “I don’t know—fine I guess.”


“You don’t have any problems you want to share--you know nothing leaves this room,” said Doctor Newton.


I knew she was going to ask, and it came like a reflection in a broken mirror.


“Could you tell me a little about your relationship with your mother and how you feel about her illness?”





The whine of the Ford in the driveway and the horn blow immediately following the clap of a door usually sent happiness through me, enough to send me sailing towards the front door of the house. This evening carried no such melody, only torture. There I sat, listening to the strikes of thunder from her high-heals tear through my heart, and to an awareness of a screaming ever so true. Yet it filled me like a dream that comes like a shadow and all I could do was sit there, paralyzed on the ground next to the door. I knew something was wrong when it should have been right; I could feel the warmth of harmony’s momentary embrace grow desolate as it covered my eyes as I sat crying. The door slammed shut sending a flash of light through the room and then silently returning back beneath the door from where it had abruptly entered. I know not of money, jobs, worry, responsibility, hate, rape, illness, divorce, and now I know not my mother’s eyes before me. These things were cold and sunken, empty shells of the loving and pretty world through which I learned of good and evil. They were dead, destroyed, from another world I had not learned of but heard so much about. I moved down her face to black rivers that tainted the shores of her cheeks. Further down rested a set of vicious white edges, made visible by the panicked wrinkles that made a martyr of her face. I searched violently for my mother, but the closest thing I would ever find to her would be found only in a mirror.


Night came in, relieving shame from the earth and its creatures. I always liked the night for it unmasked the ambiguities of day and gave true shape to what had previously been blinded so childishly by the sun. Tonight I sat in bed and adjusted my eyes enough to see past the glare of the lamp out into the light of night. There was a tall eucalyptus, hunched from the irregularity of its large branches and lack of roots, which grew centered in the lawn and around it was the rest of the backyard lawn. This sanctuary of infinite youthful possibilities tonight would not find relief from the usual cry of laughter, but host the paths of two lives, each tied to survival dependent on the other’s death. The two shadows unveiling themselves, circumvented around the corners of my eyes to find one another at the base of the eucalyptus. There they scratched, bit, tore, and capsized until they became one snarled mess of the same shadow among the sea of grass. I picked up deafly howls and cries, but neither sound belonged to a definite shape. Not until the hissing stopped and one shadow floated erratically back in the direction it had came from could I tell. It was my aged smitten cat Chelsy, but she was the mound of flesh that remained. She had seen night before day, child after parent, prey facing predator, and now she and her tree would see life after death—but never would the roots be less uneven or the leaves greener.





“ ‘And God made the wild beasts of the earth according to their kinds, and domestic animals according to their kinds, and everything that creeps upon the earth was good and He approved it.


God said, Let Us make mankind in Our image, after Our likeness, and let them have complete authority over the fish of the sea, the birds of the air, the tame beasts, and over all of the earth, and over everything that creeps upon the earth--,’ ”


“Why did God create us?”


“I don’t quite know, maybe God got lonely or maybe he just wanted praise,” Mommy answered. I bent my neck backwards and gawked at her. Her eyes were recoiled and wounded as before, but a little warmth still radiated in the sparkle I always remember her having. I have seen her look at others but the glint of light never shows itself.


“Honey why don’t you just let me finish so we can go to bed,” said Mommy exhaustingly.


“O.K., but I have already heard this part tell another,” I cheered.


“How about this, ‘And when the woman saw that the tree was good for food and that it was delightful to look at, and a tree to be desired in order to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate; and she gave some also to her husband, and he ate.


Then the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves apron-like girdles.


And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden—’ ”


“Why did God make the tree? And was God angry at them?”


“Honey, how can a parent ever be angry at a child, except for when that child is no longer one anymore. Even then a parent’s love never dies. God doesn’t create bad people only bad situations. If you remember anything I ever tell you remember this, Love is what you don’t give not what you do give. Maybe truth is supposed to be glorious because you know what love is and you are closer to God for it. So maybe Bliss is what defines innocence and choice is what defines love. If a person doesn’t have choice can they ever really know true love?”


I was now asleep, only I was dreaming dreams that have no place inside a child. Murky dreams where I could feel my teeth come loose and scrape the sides of my mouth, then dangle from the veins that give them life. All the while I watch helplessly the scene of my Mommy willingly feeding herself to a pack of wild wolves. I feel no pain, no emotion, I only watch while I frantically try to understand why I don’t stop her. Upon waking, I could see the door to my now dark room, it was cracked transcending a long triangular light across my bed and up onto the edge of my pillow next to my face. On the illuminated sliver of my pillow I could see pools of dampness that had been absorbed into the inner depths of the cushioning. I sat there, face down wondering if the wet was from tears or saliva, for I had none on my face.





I had already been seated along side the cul-de-sac curb when the shadow of Dad’s Bronco screeched and eased to a halt, blocking the evening sun from my view. The faint circular outline of the moon could already be seen directly overhead. The curb upon which I sat was still warm, the only remnant left of the Sun’s presence in the horseshoe shaped neighborhood that crowned the hill on which it rested. I placed my right hand on the curb for I no longer needed to shield my eyes from the glare angled off from the side-view mirror on the Bronco. The brown cardboard box of memories that lay between my legs lined up with the back tire of the Bronco. These few random objects I managed to salvage before my Dad told me we had to go held no value, but they were the best I could find. A stuffed wolf Mommy had given me for Valentine’s one year sat on the surface of the opened box. Wolves for as long as I could remember had been my favorite animals but now the stuffed sentiment left me with a sickening feeling inside. The sensation wrenched onto my heart, turning it black with blood, until the failure of it all floated down to the pit of my stomach. I flipped the wolf on its face after having seen my opaquely convex reflection in the wolf’s testing eyes. Dad’s words still rung loudly in my fragile skull, forever trapping the question of what my Mommy really was. How could she be? My Mommy of six years could not have a mental illness. Could I still love her? Did she still love me? And ever more troubling, whom could I believe, my Dad or my Mommy? The only truth I could decipher was through the back window of my Dad’s Bronco, for I could see my mother’s face as it grew smaller. She was kneeling down against the garage door, each hand covering one eye; and so the sparkle was gone forever and so was I.





Although I could not bear to look up into Doctor Newton’s eyes I knew from her utter silence that she too was on the verge of tears. If she could see through all that saturation she would have found a boy who once knew the sweet clap of a rubber ball on concrete, a boy who could have told her the difference between the way a blue crayon and a red crayon smells, and too a boy that once knew the sweet taste that fruit could give in the shimmering presence of an ice-cream truck’s innocent call. But today she only found what made all those memories so precious.


Doctor Newton whispered, “that’s enough for today, you may go.”


And so I did, leaving her with nothing to look at but all those frowns of babies and clowns.

Does this narrative essay contain philosophical meaning and is it A,B,C,D, or F quality?
F quality sorry


Its a little short on words and it resembles a question more than an essay... but keep trying and don't forget the potential for a good....E ........Cheers
Reply:Again, if I knew which essay you were referring to I could rate it.
Reply:umm..i dont see any narrrative?



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Anyone ever gotten a replacement tooth?

I'm wanting to get a down right rotted, barely there molar extracted and a replacement tooth put in place. Where they do the surgery and, well, "screw" a new tooth in place. Anyone ever gotten this done that can tell me a bit about that experience or know someone who has? What about the overall total cost of something like this? I've heard it's around 1200 per tooth. Does insurance cover it? Any details or personal experiences would be appreciated. Any good websites that have pictures and details of this kind of surgery?

Anyone ever gotten a replacement tooth?
had the 'screw'' pro. done. went good. want the perm. bridge tho. if that tooth chips it starts all over.
Reply:I CHIPPED my tooth one time. and i got a filling. uhm. i couldnt tell you the cost, but i know it doesnt cost as much as my braces do!



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Are you at this age yet? I'm not quite there but I guess this is how you would feel. What do you think?

~When you look upon special things to happen,sometimes they appear~J E M














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Ramblings of a Retired Mind








I was thinking about how a status symbol of today is those cell phones that everyone has clipped onto their belt or purse. I can't afford one. So, I'm wearing my garage door opener. I also made a cover for my hearing aid and now I have what they call blue teeth, I think.





You know, I spent a fortune on deodorant before I realized that people didn't like me anyway.





I was thinking that women should put pictures of missing husbands on beer cans!








I was thinking about old age and decided that old age is 'when you still have something on the ball, but you are just too tired to bounce it.'





I thought about making a fitness movie for folks my age, and call it 'Pumping Rust'.





I've gotten that dreaded furniture disease. That's when your chest is falling into your drawers!





When people see a cat's litter box, they always say, 'Oh, have you got a cat?' Just once I want to say, 'No, it's for company!'





Employment application blanks always ask who is to be notified in case of an emergency. I think you should write, 'A Good Doctor'!





Why do they put pictures of criminals up in the Post Office? What are we supposed to do...write to these men?





Why don't they just put their pictures on the postage stamps so the mailmen could look for them while they deliver the mail? Or better yet, arrest them while they are taking their pictures!





I was thinking about how people seem to read the Bible a whole lot more as they get older. Then, it dawned on me, they were cramming for their finals.





As for me, I'm just hoping God grades on the curve.




















' Enjoy Your Days .%26amp;. Love Your Life' Because :::





' Life is a journey to be savored

Are you at this age yet? I'm not quite there but I guess this is how you would feel. What do you think?
We had our share of Good time of fresh air,mountain breeze,river and ponds and well swimming,thatched roof cinema hall,pollution free earth than the present age inherited,lot of folk songs,road side dramas,singing competitions,group dancing,church,temple gathering very devoted,totally believing there is GOD.Can Henry David Throue go to walden living now,can r.frost write in New hampshire poems like " A cosiderable Speck".The modern times have their own toys like laptop,cellphone,computers,and if you are rich enough sports car,private planes.We may not exchange our golden days for these modern toys.so we may not fully in the prsent age isn't it
Reply:HAHA!
Reply:it's fun
Reply:different!....different.



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White Teeeth..?

yes i do brush my teeth and i would love them white so i can smile on more pictures.. i have assked my mom if i could have them whitend and she said its lots of money.. but whats the cheapest and also were is it cheap ?? but if not is there any think like without having them whitend making them whiter ??

White Teeeth..?
You could always try the Crest Whitening strips, They work.
Reply:I wish I could answer your question, but I have the same problem. So, if anyone out there knows the answer, please, inform us.
Reply:white strips at wal-mart... the're like 20 or so dollars!
Reply:you have to rinse your mouth out with a solution of hydrogen peroxide and water 2 times a day for a month





or





you can get some baking soda and put in on a cloth and rub it on your teeth



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Can someone tell me how to insert batteries and memory card in a Canon Powershot A560?

And can they please explain it like I am a five year old. I am 73 and got roses for my birthday, and would like to take a picture of them before they open all the way.


I have the two batteries, and the door is open on the bottom of the camera. With the lens facing towards the left, it looks like the left battery should be a minus on top, now the right battery should be a plus on top, because it has a little circle on the right of it that has a plus.


Then the memory card, I read all the instructions, how to handle, how not to write on it with the wrong thing, how to slide the little metal switch up so it can be erased, deleted, I guess they mean the pictures, but how to install it, nothing, now this is my first digital camera. The memory card is a Kingston, it has an arrow on the top, and if I look on the back it has copper teeth in a line, So does the arrow mean that when you put the memory card in the copper teeth go first, and which way do I turn card, Lid will not close. Thanks

Can someone tell me how to insert batteries and memory card in a Canon Powershot A560?
Here's a link that tells you how to install batteries %26amp; memory card. Type "install card" in the search %26amp; it will bring up page showing how to install batteries %26amp; card. If you're installing correctly, you usually need to press in with a little pressure so it clicks into place. Good luck!
Reply:please check the user guide for assistance ..
Reply:The copper teeth are the first to go into the camera (it will only go in one way ... and there should be an illustration in your manual showing that, in any case don't force anything when it comes to cameras) Keep the card "unlocked" at all times so you can use the memory card ..locking it has no real benefit to those who use them with cameras.





Loading the batteries is just like putting them in any device that uses them. The plus sign on the battery goes where plus sign is on the camera.





The other part of the equation is owning a computer and having at least intermediate skill using it. It has become the "darkroom" of the millennium, so any changes you want to make to the images are done using the photo program that comes with the camera.
Reply:Hello Anne2





I recommend to take again the instruction manual for d the card at the overview may be signed whre the slot for the card is. For the batteries I recommend to go after that what is on the camera marked.


In general the slots for the memory chips are often at one side of the cameras and a cautchuk door to open. I hope I could help.



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Can you draw a picture of God, show it to someone else and have it correctly identified?

Because.... I'd bet £20 that you can't.





Now... think about this.


You could draw a picture of the Easter Bunny.... and the most deviation you would get is "rabbit" or "rabbit with eggs" or "funnily coloured rabbit".


You could draw the tooth fairy.... and the strangest response you'd get would be "winged person collecting teeth".


Draw Santa... and just about anyone in the western world would correctly identify it.


Same with a dragon.... pretty much...


There are plenty of folks out there who could identify a Griffin, Chimera or Manticore as well.... and the rest would simply claim they didn't know.








Now try drawing a picture of God.


Compare it to the next person's picture.


See if either of you could actually identify without prior knowledge what the other one had drawn.... and the responses could be anything under the sun.


I strongly doubt anyone has the slightest clue....











So...


.... Who wants to believe in THAT?

Can you draw a picture of God, show it to someone else and have it correctly identified?
Badger claws are made for digging; not for art.


We're practical; not poncey.





But if one of you humans could accurately draw the great Seytnurr... any Badger would recognise him.


Any other god? You'd have a bit more trouble there.


The old Egyptian human gods were easily identifiable. Some of the Norse ones too. The Greek / Roman ones not quite so much. The Abrahamic one? No hope.
Reply:How do you draw a picture of something that doesn't have a physical appearance? You are succumbing to a logic fallacy known as Ignoratio Elenchi (Irrelevant Conclusion).





Ask 10 people to draw a picture of air, wind, love, saddness, anger, an atom, etc you will get a variety of depictions.





Even worse, you use examples that would actually refute your point.





"Draw Santa... and just about anyone in the western world would correctly identify it."





Draw a picture of Jesus and anyone in the western world would correctly identify it. I guess you argument is meaningless then.
Reply:NO
Reply:I'll take that bet.
Reply:LOVE LOVE LOVE U R loved he is u and I
Reply:Sure. I'd just draw him wearing a "hey, I'm God" t-shirt.
Reply:Only if I could get them to lick the backs of the toads first.
Reply:Well since I have a Native American Indian heritage. Yes, I could draw a picture of the Creator and show it to someone that believes in the old way of our Ancestors and they would recognize it.
Reply:(laughs out loud) I could draw it, but my portrait would look like Keanu Reeves.


:D


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Reply:I can't draw worth a flip.


that's for picking on me.


GB
Reply:I can't even draw a stick figure and have it identified as... a stick figure...





So,... no!
Reply:Believing as I do that God doesn't have a form, as he/she/it is a force and not a personality, no, I couldn't draw you a picture.





But how would you draw a picture of friendship? Maybe your best friend? If you show that to someone else, it will be meaningless to them unless that is their best friend as well. God is too highly personalized a construct to have a universally accepted depiction. Each person believes/experiences God differently.
Reply:I do! I want to believe in God. God is Love. It's the Power of Love - and it works through us. It's pretty easy to believe in Love.





But - you're right - I can't draw a picture of Love.





And yet - I can talk about it. Communicate about it. No need to draw pictures because most of us have brains that allow us to communicate at a higher level!!





Namaste!!
Reply:Here is an interesting artistic rendering of the Trinity:


http://www.mgr.org/Trinity.JPG
Reply:Impressions of God are never the same, because God is a theory made up to explain the unknown.





Therefor, the will of God and the nature of God are all subjective, so different types of people worship different God's. Some are loving, some are merciful, others are judgmental and jealous. God doesn't exist, an is therefore undefined universally.





Does he have six arm or a white beard? Neither, he is an emotional crutch that is based on myth.
Reply:Actually, I'd bet I could draw a picture of an old guy in a robe surrounded by a bunch of clouds and most people would call that "God" though it would depend on their culture. I might not get such a positive response in India.





So I think you're probably wrong about that.
Reply:God's love is the same for everyone. I'd draw a heart with a cross in it.





But any God that can be drawn on a piece of paper isn't a god worth worshipping, in my opinion.
Reply:I always thought that was the cool thing about God - since he's invisible and a spirit creature, each person can visualize him how they wish. They can visualize an old man with a long white beard - or even a woman in a white robe.


The difference is you are asking people to draw mythical creatures that were created by man - and therefor have many books and images after themselves - unique characteristics that define them physically.


How can you define or picture God when he is not flesh?
Reply:i must say, middle aged white guy with white beard, and surrounded by clouds, probably would be identified as god....





or you could draw a picture of morgan freeman
Reply:I would not serve a god I could draw a picture of!


Why, you ask?


Because God imagined me and not the other


way around!


God is supernatural and too complex for someone


to draw on a mere 2-dimensional sheet of paper!


Any god or fairy tale creature I could draw would


be a myth for the very fact I could draw it and it


would be recognizable to so many!
Reply:The closest I could come to that is trying to draw a picture of Jesus.





This guy is quite good at it:





http://youtube.com/watch?v=8M4_IlbaZHA%26amp;m...





Jesus Christ is how God showed us his heart.
Reply:i can-it would be a picture of a lovely woman-naked-smiling and looking willing and most people-at least most males and some females would take one look and go OH GOD-----enjoy the day and remember what is important
Reply:I'll try to draw God the way I feel He looks but I have to be honest, I've never seen Him, I've only felt His amazing grace and love I can draw that, but I can't draw His image until I've seen Him.




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Advice for braces???

Im 16 and the dentist said i needed braces. but i love to take picture of myself and i dont want braces to get in the way and make me look bad. plus i would need them for 2 years, that mean i will have to have them for my senior year pictures. and i dont want to wait to college to have them. i want to get them now to get it over with. the dentist also said i do not qualift for invisiline. and i would proabably look bad with braces since my teeth are so small. also everyone in my grade had them and already had them all. and everyone has perfect teeth. no one has braces anymore and i dont want to be the only one to have them. I need help... should i get them or not????

Advice for braces???
id get them, there totally worth it in the end. Ive had mine on for about a year now but i love them because i know that my teeth will be gorgeous when i get them off. they shouldn't look bad on your teeth though.


but you need to do everything that they tell you to do, i mean floss and mouthwash etc. the better you take care of your teeth the less complications therefore you can sometimes get them off earlier.


if you do get braces, right before your appointments make sure to take some pain meds so your mouth doesn't get super sore at first.
Reply:Two years isn't really that long, I had mine on for 5 and 1/2 years. I would wait till college so you don't have braces in your senior pictures though, if it means that much to you.
Reply:if your teeth really need them, then yea. ive had my braces for over 2 yrs and im about to get them off. After like a couple of months ull get used to ur braces and they wont be as big as an issue u think they'll be.
Reply:I would get them now, and get them over with. You can always do a smile in your senior pictures where you're not showing your teeth and it would still look good. Just focus on your lops in the picture. Good luck, it really won't be that bad. You'll have a nice smile when they come off.
Reply:i am so sorry 4 u. i am 14%26amp;have braces and get them off in 2009 like around july or so.
Reply:yeah i will so be worth it in the end and plus if they make fun of you for having braces its way better than having people make fun of your teeth


i hope you get really straight teeth in 2 years :)
Reply:You can atully get braces and the INSIDES of your teeth, so no one can see them! It's great for adults or older people who dont want to be seen in braces!



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